I don't watch the news often. Mostly because it is terribly depressing. I am in continuous fear of some sort of apocalypse happening, social collapse, EMP, invasion, aliens, zombies....does it really matter? They all would suck. Funny those are the genres I read though. Now they don't seem so fictional. Never thought I would question if the 'Handmaids Tale' could possibly come to fruition, yet hear I sit and wonder. There are conversations around the constitution of the United States and if that constitution applys to women. They have overturned Roe vs Wade, not once but twice? Really? It is illegal to get an abortion...all I can ask is, what the hell is happening?
My track record for relationships isn't steller. I've heard the rederick in my own house; women belong in the kitchen, bare foot and pregnant, women are better keeping house than understanding buisiness, women should be kept at home...basically, we don't deserve rights, compassion, understanding, or to be treated as people. Didn't our mothers fight and protest for those rights? I'm sure my mother did. Was there not bra burning and crowded streets? Didn't our grandmothers fight to give us the right to vote? I'm pretty sure all those things happened but I'm also sure I'm being gaslit to believe that I am not a person currently in some places in this world. Unfortunately, that place is right next door.
I heard there was a website discovered of 70,000 members, all male, who were sharing tips on how to SA women...What?
How did this all become mundane? Why are we not shocked? Why are we not taking to the streets in the hundreds of thousands and demanding our rights not be overlooked? I can't claim to understand this world when I was barely navigating the last stretch, but as I become more aware of raised grocery prices, gas, rent, living in general, I can't help but question, when did I enter this abusive relationship and how do I get out of it? I already couldn't walk at night alone, now I might not be able to leave the house, the house I can barely afford or put food in?
We live in a very real world that is threatening women everywhere. These are not just American ideologies, these thoughts cross boarders and enter the lives of many. I don't know a single woman who does not have a story to tell about an abusive ex, an SA, or simply a moment of being talked down to or simply outright disrespected by a man.
We are all so numb at the state of reality that I don't think any of us know what to do, we are too scared to stand up and too terrified to keep quiet. seems like most of us are being gaslit to remain compliant. Why not, we get it from our managers at work, the conversations from our male acquaintances, and some of us at home by our partners.
These are the moments that I feel being an introvert are detrimental, I am not smart enough to engage, nor socially equipped enough to lead. So I continue to sit on my couch, pray the world doesn't completely go to shit, read my books and write out my thoughts in order to keep the depression of reality at bay.
Good luck out there ladies, we are truly entering dark times. My prayers and hope for a better future are with you. Cheers.
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